surrender.

there was a letter, you left me. there was a letter. you left.
my day suddenly felt crippling as I realized you'd left.
you said you 'couldn't take it any more', you 'needed to leave.'
and when you left that note, you didn't think to take me.
a young girl, lost and scared, now feeling very alone. 
my mind struggled to think of what I'd do now with you gone.
i'll never forget the wave of hurt that pushed me to the ground,
the thought of you just leaving like that, not having you around.


i'm grown up now and I'm now able to see that you were not who I needed you to be. I've learned lessons, i've grown, and i'm confident in what I know. i've recovered past the sadness, I'm moving on.  I needed you to be more than just a thought. I needed you to be more than a hope that I'd hoped: a happiness I'd sought. you lost me back then, when you just up and went. that moment and that little note that I didn't foresee, when there was a letter and you had left me.