i have to believe in the good in people.

i am a sensitive person. this is something that i have come to know, more and more, as i continue to grow. as i walk through life, wide-eyed and hopeful, optimistic, a logical thinker - i am often quick to judge people based on their highest potential, because if they can, why wouldn't they? which, then, often leads to disappointment - which never ends well for a sensitive heart.

no matter how many people prove me wrong, i have to believe in the good in people. this wont change. my sensitive heart makes me bleed compassion and understanding. But, my judgement isn't completely off; there is a specific breed of vindictive females and slow-witted men that i seem to be able to pick out of a crowd. these are the people that thrive on the fantasy that they're the lead role in their own reality t.v. series, and keeping with the tradition, they tend to keep certain that the plot remains full of amusement, regardless of whose expense it's at. i see that there are people who enjoy the game of sitting on the dark side; i just can't understand doing something to achieve a thrill that inevitably is at the expense of the feelings of another person. how can we, as human beings, willingly choose to hurt another person? another one of our kind?

it seems that the more i see people do wrong to one another, the tragedy that humans are choosing to inflict on one another, around the world, but also in our daily lives, the more that i read, and hear, and learn, the more i feel i have to believe in the good of people. it's as though i need to. i can't give up. instead, i will be optimistic. i will be hopeful, compassionate, and understanding.

how devastating would it be to one day come to the realization that though humans can do good to one another, when given the option, we will chose to do bad; putting first personal thrills, gain, and greed, and in turn making a victim out of one of their own.

it doesn't make sense.

that's why i need to believe. if we each begin to walk with our heads down, with the mindset that everyone is an opponent or potential threat, then that is what the world will become. that would be the biggest tragedy.