this life of mine.

I cannot help myself but try; try to do my best, try to live for me without being selfish. I try to love and not judge, move past issues, forgive, and not hold a grudge. I try to see from all perspectives and understand each individuals choice of method. I try my best and yet I am often left wishing for something else, left wishing for more; more smiles, more laughs, more love - I want my life to be full and exciting, exhilarating and enticing. I want spontaneity. I want romance. I want to travel, and learn, and someday I want to be held by the person that I love and share our first dance.
Sometimes I cannot help but dream and hope to aspire into something so much bigger than I seem to be. I want a job that suits my passions and allows me to reach out to others, making a difference in their life, one that they wished for and dreamt of - removing the doubt in their minds of what they could aspire towards, who they could be. I cannot help dreaming and wishing, hoping that all that seems good and true in life will not be exposed as a lies. I hope that those things and people that I admire and adore will to not be something or someone that I will come to despise.
In this life I will push. Yes, I will strive for the best. I will come out on top; I will conquer - I`ll settle for nothing less. In this life of mine I will not be playing games. I simply refuse to play pretend. I will face each challenge with an open mind and learn of all of the things that I once could not comprehend.
In this life, I will not just stand here, I will not allow myself to live in spite and despise. I will not stop dreaming, I will not settle, I will not compromise.